i just got a big wave of missing my dad. i was looking and sketching his drawings for my online portfolio, and i remembered him, his humor and beauty and straightforwardness. i wish he could meet fabian. i wish he could be with mom and enjoy their retirement together. i wish he could walk me down the aisle and be really excited about my Life and how i've grown. i wish i could share amazing red wine with him. i wonder how he would feel about the iPhone. i think the keyboard is way too small for him. i get annoyed using it on my friends' phones. i miss holding my dad's hand. he had great hands that could literally take our headaches away. i miss laughing with him and watching action movies.